the story of my quest

i on a quest to find the meaning of life. i know this will take a looong time, so in the meantime, i like to make constant stops at all the restaurants and coffeshops i can find along the way.

i chronicle my quest in my blog, seekers anonymous.

my quest has guided me from a first degree in computer science and a job in ibm as an it specialist, to a second degree in architecture, a job as a university instructor, and a couple of jobs in the architectural design and construction industry.

i have thus far settled on a happy mix of work that interests me and feeds my soul, which includes freelance design and writing, teaching, and (surprise surprise) insurance and mutual funds sales.

however, i still have a lot of stumbling blocks to get over, the main one being the residual anxiety i have about not being in the state of regular paid employment.

don't get me wrong. this is my choice. given a chance, i would not take on a 9 to 5. that said, twenty plus years of typical filipino conditioning (get good grades, get good job) is hard to cast off, no matter how strongly you may believe otherwise. much as i would like to be an independent thinker, i still look to my peers for validation, if not actively, then subconsciously. and most of my peers are climbing the corporate ladder.

then there's that thing called inertia. don't even get me started on inertia.

anyway, the point is, it's hard to strike out on your own, and it's hard to step off the work treadmill. so a little venting is required on a regular basis, and a little encouragement would be nice, and a little resolve: and seeing your words down on the screen, if not on paper, helps.